In the episode "Green Apples."
         (Poetry inspired, Neil and Christy’s scene on the school 
steps where Neil says, "Because it wasn't me.") 



                                                               A FULL HEART


                                                        The night was still and quiet
                                                         Soft music could be heard
                                                       They sat there in the darkness
                                                          But neither said a word.
                                                         Both felt quite exhausted 
                                                      From the sickness they had seen
                                                      But all that Neil could think of
                                                       Was how foolish he had been.
                                                  His heart had leapt when she had come
                                                           To visit him that day
                                                    He’d wondered what her reason was
                                                         For smiling in that way.
                                                      For she had looked so beautiful
                                                        And he had been impressed
                                                        By her enchanting presence
                                                      And her charming friendliness.
                                                     He’d had the pleasure of a dance
                                                      They’d waltzed there in the sun
                                                       She’d said he needed someone
                                                       And he knew she was the one
                                                         But Christy, he discovered
                                                        Wasn’t thinking of romance
                                                     But hoped she could convince him
                                                        To give Dan Scott a chance.
                                                       He’d felt so angry at himself
                                                        To think that he had dared
                                                     To hope at last she’d come to see
                                                         How much he truly cared.
                                                      And so he had lashed out at her
                                                         When Scarlet Fever came
                                                       Accusing her of carelessness
                                                          As if she were to blame.
                                                       He knew that he had hurt her
                                                       And he wished that he had not
                                                      But he resented her compassion
                                                       And concern for Daniel Scott.
                                                       He wanted to explain himself
                                                        To share with her his heart
                                                    But the fact he was a married man
                                                          Was tearing him apart.
                                                     Then she spoke first and told him
                                                         Of the fear she held inside
                                                   And the guilt which would engulf her
                                                           If any children died.
                                                         At once he reassured her
                                                      That she’d done nothing wrong
                                                       He’d only been upset because
                                                        His feelings were so strong.
                                                    And then he shared his soul with her
                                                          So she at last would see
                                                    “I was angry that you cared for him
                                                          Because it wasn’t me.”
                                                   But Christy, though her heart was full
                                                       Knew not what she should say
                                                        And so, she sat there silently
                                                          As he just walked away.

                                                               Susie Brown
                                                                  9-5-98